Are you willing to go beyond the rent veil?

When you hear the verse, the glory of the latter house will be greater than the former – this is just a taste of what it means.

The very second Jesus died on the cross, the veil of the temple ripped top to bottom. That veil was as thick as a man’s hand about 4 inches thick. It took 300 priests to hold on to it and replace it every year. It was so strong that neither an earthquake or 2 horses on each side couldn’t pull it apart. It was 60′ long and 30′ high. Why is that so important?

THAT IS HOW MUCH GOD WANTED TO INTERACT PERSONALLY WITH HIS PEOPLE. The death of Jesus on the cross allows anyone free access to the most holy of holy places. The very intimate manifest presence of God!! How many times are we satisfied to stay in the outer courts and just watch or participate from a distance? We have access to the very intimate place that before Jesus’ death was only accessed 1 time a year by a priest who had to be 100% pure and blameless, with a cord and bell wrapped around his ankle. Why? Because if he entered behind the veil with any sin or did anything wrong God would strike him dead. He had a bell so people outside would know if he was dead or not then they would pull him out by the Rope. Imagine the level of fear and reverence for the presence of God they had.

We have a choice, we can choose to stay in the OT times and stay away from the intimate presence of God, or we have a choice to desire more and more of His presence. The enemy has tried everything he can to keep the church from entering into that deep place of worship. He pulls out all the stops and presents just the right formula because he used to be the worship leader of Heaven. He knows the incredible and wonderful joy and freedom that comes from worshipping at the throne room. There is a deeper place we can go, it is there. Many have tasted it. Many have been transformed by it. It takes time, it takes patience, it takes complete abandonment to the Holy Spirit.

If you don’t know what I am talking about, then feel free to message me and I can refer you somewhere where you can experience it. If you want to get a group of people together to press in deeper and spend time waiting on Him, I would love to do it with you. I know my family heritage is saturated with stories of the Glory of God showing up in times of worship and prayer. It is in my DNA, it is who I am. I never want to run away from it. The Glory of God is about to be poured out on the church in a way we have only dreamed of. But we have to want it. We have to be willing to have it change us. We have to be willing for it to not always look and sound perfect.

There is a stirring in the waters again, you can feel it all over this nation. Turn on voice competitions and you will hear worship exploding out of contestants who carry incredible anointings. The judges are stunned moved to tears and don’t even know why! I will tell you why, it is the tangible presence of Almighty God coming down in Love trying to reveal himself to us. The unsaved are Moved by true worshippers. They are not afraid. It is the presence of God that transforms them, draws them and his love is compelling them to draw deeper into his love. If we are afraid of showing the world the passionate love and presence of God through worship, we are missing God’s greatest gift the ability to connect with him on the other side of the rent veil.

I write this after a morning of horrible heavy attack. I’m telling you something real here, the enemy wants to steal your joy, your peace and what you feel God’s call is on your life. He did with me this morning. I contacted 2 of my closest friends one here and one on the other side of the world and begged them to pray for me. This stupid thing lifted as I came into agreement with them, rebuked the enemy asked for forgiveness to God for coming into agreement with those lies and God set me free.

Hallelujah! I know Gods purpose is good and He will make a way where there is no way!

I started off this post wanting to share with you 2 Corinthians 3:7-18 but God had something else in mind. Haha.

But if the ministry of death, written and engraved on stones, was glorious, so that the children of Israel could not look steadily at the face of Moses because of the glory of his countenance, which glory was passing away,how will the ministry of the Spirit not be more glorious?For if the ministry of condemnation had glory, the ministry of righteousness exceeds much more in glory.For even what was made glorious had no glory in this respect, because of the glory that excels.For if what is passing away was glorious, what remains is much more glorious.Therefore, since we have such hope, we use great boldness of speech—unlike Moses, who put a veil over his face so that the children of Israel could not look steadily at the end of what was passing away.But their minds were blinded. For until this day the same veil remains unlifted in the reading of the Old Testament, because the veil is taken away in Christ.But even to this day, when Moses is read, a veil lies on their heart.Nevertheless when one turns to the Lord, the veil is taken away.Now the Lord is the Spirit; and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is liberty.But we all, with unveiled face, beholding as in a mirror the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same image from glory to glory, just as by the Spirit of the Lord. – 2 Corinthians 3:7-18

Be blessed, and Press In!

Nothing on Earth Compares to THIS

☀️There is nothing as valuable and refreshing as knowing how to hear the voice of God. Not only does He bring peace deep to my soul with from his words, if I am open and confident I have the honor to partner with Him to share His thoughts to other people. 🌈

Last night, God spoke to me over and over again while in worship. He reminded me of promises and visions he gave me in high school. A part of my purpose and hearts desires that I thought would never come to pass. He gave me a renewed hope and revealed how prayers decades ago are in part answered by what is taking place in the youth of our nation. The Buckets of tears💧 I cried in intercession in high school and college, he said back then every tear would be a soul saved🎉. Looking out at the thousands of youth from all over the country last night, they are the fruit of their parents who possibly came to Christ in the last 20 years. 🎁
Then I got to partner 🤝with him at the end of the service. I felt so strong that I was supposed to ask the people sitting next to me if they were youth pastors. I looked over and was nervous and about walked away. I heard God say my name very loud and very clearly. 📣When he says my name it kind of jolts me and I know I’m supposed to obey without a doubt. All I got before I stepped out was that they were youth pastors and they had something stolen away from them from someone they knew. And that God was going to pour back everything they have lost plus more. When I approached them, and they said they were youth pastors but have stepped away from it right now – I went for it. It is the first time in a long time that God gave me very specific words of knowledge and prophetic words of what’s going to happen for the husband and wife and even their daughter. Their astonished faces and nodding heads were the confirmation that everything was right on. It gave me even more confidence that I was really hearing correctly what God was saying. I can’t tell you how exciting and refreshing that is to be able to pour out to someone else a word of encouragement and Hope from God. It’s like nothing you can even compare to on Earth. Partnering with Heaven and releasing God’s word of life on earth.

This morning driving Isaac to GU, I was in a mess of tears again as God continued to speak to me about His purposes for my life. His word never returns void but ACCOMPLISHES what He SAID He would do. Hallelujah. Now God GO GET MY Boys! 👐

# GenerationUnleashed #CityBibleChurch

We are winning! The Year of Hope

Its a good thing that God said He will build His church, we have to be like Peter which means “the rock”, solid, immovable, reliable, and strong. The rest is in God’s hands. He has given us the keys which allows us access to whatever we need. We are overcomers and we are WINNING! No power of hell can overtake us! Its in the book!! Partnering with Heaven to release His treasures on Earth is our greatest reward and daily adventure. 

Matthew 16:18-19 New King James Version (NKJV)

18 And I also say to you that you are Peter, and on this rock I will build My church, and the gates of Hades shall not prevail against it. 19 And I will give you the keys of the kingdom of heaven, and whatever you bind on earth will be bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth will be loosed[a] in heaven.”

I want to see breakthroughs in areas people have been praying for and we are entering into a season where God is pouring out His Spirit in new and powerful ways. He is strengthening our foundations and renewing our purpose as His will is gladly obeyed. Favor – Blessing and Increase our released as we become His hands and feet to our community. New Hope- New Strength & Freedom is ours!

I once had a friend ask me why I go to church all the time. My answer was simple, There is safety in a multitude of counselors. I don’t know about you but I need accountability in my life. If I just Stay at home and never have fellowship, I am missing out on having a lot of trusted godly people speak into my life. Many times people do not want to open up if they don’t know their pastors, but it’s hard to know who your your pastors and spiritual leaders are if you don’t go to church and interact with them.

I mean Facebook is great and all, but that is not real fellowship. The devil wants to isolate us, he knows if he can isolate us from the body of Christ then we are more open to him twisting our life into knots. There is something about corporate worship, exhortation and hearing what God wants to speak to us as a body and as a region that you just don’t receive from home. Every church has a mandate given to them by God. As a member of that body you are a part of that incredible blessing and responsibility.

There is a trend going on right now that going to church is just a bunch of legalism. To me that is just a lie from the enemy. Every time I am burdened down and heavy and feel like there’s no way I can go to church, that is just the day that God has an incredible breakthrough for me to receive. The encouragement and prayer that takes place, as well as, the friendships built and strengthened has lifted me higher than any facebook post or online message I have ever read and listened to. That’s a fact! Hebrews 10:24-25 “and let us consider thoughtfully how we may encourage one another to love and to do good deeds, not forsaking our meeting together as believers for worship and instruction, as is the habit of some, but encouraging one another; and all the more faithfully as you see the day of Christ’s return approaching. “

Can you have freedom while surrounded by war?

 IS IT POSSIBLE to have VICTORY even when you are in a place where it seems no one else is walking in that freedom? YES!! ONLY OF YOU PRESS INTO THE THRONE ROOM UNTIL YOUR PERSONAL FREEDOM IS RECEIVED! Do NOT allow the enemy to bring frustration and anger while looking at those around you who are not walking in freedom. Get YOUR breakthrough FIRST and allow the Holy Spirit to USE YOU to press in for breakthrough in the corporate.

Something happened to me. I was in the middle of a spiritual and mental war with the most intense conflicting thoughts, emotions and desires that I have ever felt. I was in a worship service where I knew the principal that “it doesnt matter the style or the song, I need to focus on Jesus and give my worship to Him.” BUT IT WAS SO HARD!! Everything that was in me wanted to sing out and see breakthrough in the service and in my own heart but the combination of everything had me fighting inside. At one point I thought we were going to break into a new level but it flatlined and I started to tremble with desire and agitation, so not wanting anger and frustration to come in I ran upstairs and to a back corner and first repented for my attitute and for having a struggle inside of me. I began to say over and over again “Breakthrough, Breakthrough, BREAKTHROUGH!!!!! I began to pray in the spirit allowing God to pray through me. It got more and more intense. I began to sense in the spirit what had been taking place over the last while. 

Finally, the song I heard playing in the background was a song about Victory. At one point in the song I SHOUTED out a long warcry with a loud voice declaring into the atmosphere and spirit WE HAVE VICTORY. “Hallelujah, We Have Overcome, We have Overcome. Hallelujah, Jesus you have Overcome the world.” As that song played I began taking back the ground that the enemy “thought” he had claimed. This is God’s church, These are God’s people. We belong to Him and He had overcome and we are overcoming with Him. “Every high thing must come down, every stronghold must be broken. You wear the victor’s crown. You have overcome, You have overcome.”

I was out of breath at the end and had to sit down and compose myself before heading back to my chair. It was like being in labor till at least I had a emotional and spiritual breakthrough in myself. If anyone else received a breakthrough than praise God. I knew I was not going to allow the enemy TO ROB ME OF A BLESSING or to allow my heart to get filled with crud. 

We all have times where we are so hungry and the situaltion in life may not have all the right answers but we do have a choice to turn to the One who does! When your feet are planted on the rock and your eyes are on Him, He knows your deepest desires and needs and He will meet them.

If church attenders spent MORE TIME SEEKING GOD for a breakthrough in the service, no matter how they need to do it and LESS TIME CRITICIZING the songs, style or leader – every church would have the personal and corporate revival like we are praying for. It is a matter of our HEART and ACTIONS!!

So go get your freedom! Find it in the throne room. Go there yourself, you do not need anyone else to take you there. Through the blood of Jesus we now have free access. The veil has been torn in two. 

 So then, since we have a great High Priest who has entered heaven, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold firmly to what we believe. This High Priest of ours understands our weaknesses, for he faced all of the same testings we do, yet he did not sin. So let us come boldly to the throne of our gracious God. There we will receive his mercy, and we will find grace to help us when we need it most. 

Hebrews 4:14-16


What was hidden for 1500 years, NOW AVAILABLE

Whoa!!! Teaching the DCF elementary tomorrow on the tabernacle and the ark of the covenant. I want to see a generation who abandon themselves before God. A generation who is not afraid to stick out in a crowd because the glory of the Lord is shining upon them. In 1995 I saw a room full of young people and their faces were shining so brightly I was freaking out. I saw a pictire of the future of the glory of God resting on young people’s faces that it was physically visible. I saw a huge stadium filled with children and young people and as the unity of their intercession rose it broke through the ceiling and began to shoot out all over the city of Portland. It broke chains of people in bondage. In that building represented children and youth from every church in the city.

If we hold up walls between churches and denominations and refused to see what God can do through us because of jealousy or bitterness or hurt or disagreements it will hinder the power of God that He wants to release over our city. As pastors and members, if we hold jealousy or bitterness in our hearts towards other churches we will hinder those in our congregation. No matter what happens in relationships we have to keep our hearts pure before God. If we ever get to the point where we are comparing churches between each other and putting one down to lift another up we are damaging the body of Christ. We are his bride! What do you think God feels when we point fingers at each other. Churches are not in the popularity contest business.
We need each other, our city needs us to be in unity to walk in love. For the sake of our children and future generations we need to love each other and walk in unity with a pure heart. As my dad & Pastor Joel Hjertstedt always says, “The one who knows goes”. If you know in your heart there’s something between you and another brother or sister in Christ, or pastor, for the sake of our city, our children and your own spiritual heart please go to them and make it right. We need to stand shoulder to shoulder with each other with clean hands and a pure heart so the fire of God can come down to consume us as a forever burning light for him.

Powerful visual son of “Take Me In” Wow


LOVE WINS! – my transparent journey to finally finding acceptance.

Acceptance- to be loved, to be approved of, to be welcomed into a group, to feel apart, to feel like an equal.
As a small kid growing up I was surrounded by parents who were pastors, church friends, private Christian school and my whole extended family who were Christians. Despite being in a safe bubble I was drawn into at a young age physical contact with another girl. She was a few years older than I was and I was only 4. She had me to do things to her that were inappropriate. As the years went by I don’t know who started what but there were two other girls who I was inappropriate with, engaging in touching and kissing. It all stopped with the girls when I was around 4th or 5th grade. I remember many times asking God to forgive me but them I would go right back and do it again.

I remember one night while I was at a birthday party a girl said we only have so many times we can ask God to forgive us about the same thing, and then he will never forgive us again and we will go to hell. I will never forget running home crying because I knew I had used up all my chances. Thank God that was not perfect theology. At the same time I was struggling with the two girls, I was engaging in touching, and kissing with a male my age. Willingly because he was the only boy who ever acted like he liked me in that way, so it felt good. Masterbation also became an issue because I wanted that fluttery feeling. Even as a small child in grade school, I didnt know that was wrong. Goes to show that no age is too young to talk to your children.

On the outside I was a perfect little Christian kid who loved God with all my heart. On the inside I was in turmoil because I constantly came to God repenting for what I was doing and asking him to help me stop because I didn’t want to go to hell. I knew that no one knew the secret life I lived. My mom brought out the “Christian Body Changing” books at different times and I was nervous, but not because of what she was showing, but because I was already way deeper into all of it than she even knew. So I cringed and got flustered everytime. Parents, dont let your kids responses on this issue cause you to shy away from having the hard talks. They need it more than you ever know especially in their generation.

So, the issue of homosexuality hits home and it took going through restoration ministries (SOZO) to finally be broken for the hatred I had for those in that lifestyle because of what happened to me and then the shame of the lifestyle I lead afterwards.

The issue with the boy came to a halt after a Jr. High camp when the Holy Spirit convicted me to the core as the preacher talked about sexual sin. That night I shook and fell to my face repenting. I knew I would never engage with that boy again. I slapped him the next time he came to me. And I ended it for good.

It took about 25 years for God to heal me from the shame and take away the horrible flashbacks which brought condemnation from the pit of hell. I knew I was forgiven through the years but never received a breakthrough and total healing. In the Greek SOZO means completely Saved, Healed and Delivered. During my SOZO, a woman took me through a delicate and tender prayer time where we waited on the Holy Spirit to reveal things he wanted to heal. It was incredible how God would show me different scenes of my past and the prayer person would ask me where I see one of the Godhead in the room. I saw myself with the boy. I always felt like God was mad at me as I recalled what happened. Instead of God being mad at me, he came over to me and held me and wept. I couldn’t believe it.

Then as I was trying to forgive the young girl who started this abuse I saw her behind a stained glass. And the prayer person asked me where I saw Jesus in that room and I thought he would be disgusted with her and upset. But when I looked I saw Jesus crying and holding out his arms to her wanting to heal her. That completely changed the way I thought God looked at the LGBT community. He loves them so much and is weeping over them and the pain they have gone through in their lives.

While I was in private Christian school there was a young man who had a different personality. He didn’t fit in with the jocks, or the brains just not with many. Other than some of the girls, but not really them either. The boys ridiculed him, and ostracized him. He definitely acted “gay” much of the time. He was even in a church internship program with me. But as time went on and as less and less people drew him into their circles he stepped farther and farther away from the church and eventually into the gay community. He now is married and the last I heard they are trying to adopt. He found love and acceptance in a place where he felt safe, loved and accepted for how he acted. It grieves me to the core that those in my private school, Bible College and church didn’t reach out to him more to help him find his true identity in Christ. That is the core of the matter.
I am a firm believer that God does not make us gay or straight. I believe in our life some are faced with choices where maybe by abuse, they are drawn into this lifestyle because they feel good, loved and accepted. Others may run to that lifestyle because of never being accepted with the rest of the crowd. They finally feel like they fit in and people like them for who they really are. BUT THE DECEPTION COMES when they believe who they really are is a homosexual not a person who has a different personality, or likes.

As a small child I WAS THE ONE who realized at some point interacting with another girl was wrong. IF I HAD GROWN UP IN A NON CHRISTIAN HOME, without parents and a church I never would have been confronted with the truth of the word of God. Millions of kids around the world face the same thing but now they are being encouraged to explore their sexuality and taught it is normal to desire those of the same sex. God have mercy on this generation.

We as parents need to train our children to love no matter what a kids personality is or what their strengths or weaknesses are. Those who are put down, left out and ridiculed for not loving sports or girly things will take those scares and if not healed will find those with the same scares. The enemy is just waiting to take advantage of those kids and twist their pain into ways they will justify their hurt. Our children need to learn to love and draw anyone into “their group” just like Jesus did!

What I can attest to is that God gave us a free will to choose. God gave me a free will to choose. I could have continued down that path but I am thankful at some point I was convicted and it stopped.

I remember in my first year of High School I finally got to the point where I needed to confess it to my youth pastor. I needed someone to walk me through the healing and freedom. He listened, somewhat stone faced. He probably felt awkward because my father had an office directly across the hall from him at the church. I remember weeping and pouring out my embarrassed fragile heart and all I remember him saying was to talk to my parents about it. I felt a little scarred and vulnerable with an open wound but I am thankful I had a good relationship with my parents and I finally got some of it out. I just pray youth pastors out there know how to handle “PK” kids when they bare their hearts because it is even more intimidating for a PK to do that than others.

So you may ask why in the world are you opening up your life so deep. Well, I have always been bold to share my religious and political stances and I knew this one needed to be surrounded with even more grace. Today in church while we were worshipping and listening to the destiny that we are walking into, God showed me a picture. He came to me and handed me a trumpet and a jar of balm/salve. The trumpet was to declare his promises and purposes over individuals and over the world. The balm was to bring healing to broken hearts and shattered lives. His love, grace, mercy and forgiveness with the ingredients to the balm. He wants to bind up the broken hearted, set liberty the captives and open the eyes of the blind. I am committed to Live Life Out Loud For God to see that happen.
Thanks for listening to my heart. God made man and woman in his image. He designed men and woman to each leave their parents and be joined to each other. God’s heart has never changed on this issue. Their are countless scriptures in the Bible that show what God thinks of homosexuality. Just like God will NEVER say that murder and adultery were just a cultural thing and that it is ok to do now, he will never approve of the sin of homosexuality. People say homosexuality is the same level sin as lying, stealing and gluttony. All I know is God is clear about it being wrong. And at the same time he is holding them weeping and wants them to know his love that sent his only son to a cross to die in their place so they can receive forgiveness and everlasting life.

We are commanded to LOVE. It broke my heart to see the hashtag #lovewins all over Twitter this weekend. Like saying those who are against homosexuality do not love. YES #LOVEWINS – the everlasting agape love of Papa God wins. It will win us right into his warm embrace. The church should be shouting LOVEWINS. We should be standing on the street or in the stores saying LOVEWINS. We should be showing the mercy and grace of God through our words and actions till the world understands what a pure holy unadulterated love is. God pour out your grace on us. Reveal your holiness and truth to every homosexual and those who are confused.

Love is patient, Love is Kind, It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud, it is not rude or dishonor others, it keeps no record of wrong, it is not self seeking, it is not easily angered, LOVE DOES NOT DELIGHT IN EVIL BUT REJOICES IN THE TRUTH, always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres love never fails. 1 Cor 12:1-6

……in addition….How I came to this point….

I could not take hearing the accusations from those in the church towards the ruling, that is why I posted the blog the day before about how Prophetic intercessors process what is happening in our nation. But I knew at some point I would have to tell the truth of my convictions. I only pray this rips the mask of hypocrisy off of those in the church who say one thing and do another. My hearts cries for the world sees us for who we really are because when they do they will see the grace, mercy and forgiveness of God that we have walked through ourselves. I want to see those who have walked away from Jesus and those with blinded eyes, come back to Papa God.

After my real conversion in junior high, I now know why I begin to cry out to God with a desperation to see him move. I remember in junior high and 9th and 10th grade having a passion and a hunger to see God do something huge and amazing. In 9th & 10th grade, I set aside Tuesday and Thursday to fast lunch and go to the Chapel to lead worship and pray. I remember trying to get as many kids to come out there and join me as possible. Then in 1995 the Renewal Outpouring hit and boy did it hit hard. An outpouring that changed my life forever. This outpouring for me lasted till 1997-1998.
God moves with hungry and desperate hearts. I totally remember feeling dry cracked and thirsty after my life change. I only pray that sharing my testimony unleashes a wave of revival that we have been praying for.

The most ignored commandment

Check out this interesting article.

This article is good, EXCEPT, for the flawed ideology that “God walks out once a week to meet with us”.
It is this mindset alone that is the foundation of a “pew sitter Christian”, verses a child of God who knows their Papa God intimately because of their constant daily connection and interaction. This article definitely brings to light the lack of desire people have of meeting together corporately, which is one of the most encouraging things I get to do all week. “Just one of us can put a thousand to flight, but two of us can send legions fleeing” its not only about fulfilling our “duty” of a commandant. In the New Testament laws are written on our hearts. It is taking a legalistic rule and transforming it into a desire of the heart. David said in Psalms, “obedience is better than sacrifice”. The Lord looks at the heart. He wants relationship with us, not just rules. But if you have an extended family who you love to be with, would you rather, know they are out there living or come together for a feast and party? That is what church is like when you are apart of the one God calls you to. Sabbath is to many just going to church. If this is your mindset, than we need to see that God wants to dwell with us every second of every day. Church is the time we gather all we have received from God during the week and thank Him corporately, worshipping Him giving Him praise for all He has done and all He is doing. We enter into times of intercession for others and our world. We train our children in the ways of the Lord and provide time for them to learn how to walk in their spiritual gifts.

For the medical side, sure rest is important. But it is not the most important reason. People in other parts of the country walk for miles to get to their gathering times. The church/ Christians in the West & Europe are going to face a wake-up call very soon which will prove where their loyalty lies. I only pray they understand the importance of developing an intimate relationship with the creator so they know how to lean on him when times get hard. It’s possible we could soon be in a place where we do not have the freedom anymore to worship as we choose.


Release the Fire in your Bones

At Destiny Christian Fellowship we are so blessed to be able to release the “Fire in our Bones”. Thank you (dad) Pastor Joel Hjertstedt for setting an atmosphere of freedom and release in our church. I spoke with a woman yesterday at the Woman’s meeting who could not believe the freedom of the Holy Spirit at Destiny. It was only her 2nd week. Church- dont let it end as you walk out the door- Spread that passion and fire in every outlet God gives you. DONT WEAR YOURSELF OUT BY KEEPING IT IN!!