My reflection this morning 6am.
Wondering why in the world there has been so much tension and agitation in my oldest (11yrs) which comes out towards me in the last week. Hmmm, well he just stepped into a whole new world of Middle School where he sees and hears kids who are dealing with way more junk in their lives than the kids in Elementary school. I have been approaching the situation all wrong, allowing the heaviness and contention that my son absorbed from school to affect and push my buttons.
Today I will look at the situation at its core and tell my son it’s time for him to shake the crap off at the door! From now on, As he goes into his school he better have his armor on (Ephesians 6) otherwise he is walking in there naked and vulnerable. What I have been drawn into this last week ends today. I can’t live like this and he can’t live like this. I don’t want to parent through my emotions, I need to be sound and stable allowing the presence and peace of God to rule my heart. I want a sound & renewed mind and emotions anchored at the throne of God!!
I want my son to receive so much love at home and that he is soo filled with the spirit, power and love of God that it BLASTS the enemy out of his school. Declaring freedom of depression, hopelessness, hatred, vengeance, strife over Oregon City. We release, PEACE, LOVE, JOY, RIGHTEOUSNESS, PATIENCE, GENTLENESS, KINDNESS, SELF CONTROL over our schools and children. Thank you father for a hedge of protection and sending hosts of angels to cover and protect our kids! We declare that this is the day that The Lord has made, we will rejoice and be glad in it. His mercies are new every morning, great is His Faithfulness (Lam 3)
The Encounter With my 11 yr, old 8:25-8:55am, this morning:
Whhhooooaaa!!!! God told me to drive my son to school today, He was very clear. So I did. Still in shock at what just took place in my van! After I dropped off my younger two in Boring we had 30 minutes to talk and pray on our way to his school.
I started off by having him read the post above. When he was finished he said, “WOW” in awe. After a couple minutes I asked him what he thought. He said it is just hitting him really hard and he wants to let it sink in. I then talked about the post and what took place in him and me when we allowed other peoples junk to affect us because our armor wasn’t on. We were not actively walking in the spirit and renewing our mind. That he is surrounded by a new group of very curious kids who are engaging in activities that do not please The Lord. That he needs to be aware of his sensitivity to others and not be influenced by them BUT be the one INFLUENCING THEM!
We talked about having the love of Christ so full in him that the enemy RUNS away. That the story in the New Testament where the disciples who were trying to cast out a demon and the demon replied to them, “Jesus I know, Paul I know, but who are you?” Because of who we are in Christ, and the understanding of the kingdom of God that can be released through us, I want all of hell to know our name and fear us because of God in us!! Greater is He in us than He that is in the world!!
I kept on taking a break and asking my son what he was thinking, he was soo tender and admitted he was sorry for how he has been acting and realized he needed to actively pursue God. I told him I in no way wanted him to feel heavy by this talk, but that I wanted the filth of the world to be washed off and for him to be FULL of God’s love, peace and grace. He spent a few minutes praying asking forgiveness, and putting his armor on. I wept as I prayed for him and told him how much I loved him. He with tears in his eyes told me over and over how much he loved me before he got out of the van.
My son is a world changer already. It is hard to know and see that and at the same time be vigilant to show him to not allow any foothold of the enemy. When he realized he was not walking in freedom, peace and love for himself and recognized the change that took place in him, nothing can shake a stubborn kid up more than that. His personal revelation, not a parent yelling it at him.
Our kids personal heart connections and relationship with God are what will keep them for eternity. They can’t get there on our coat tails, and they also won’t walk in freedom personally just because their parents do. I praise and thank God, that He has a hold of my boy and my son has a hold of his Heavenly Papa!
Stunned I write this as I sit in his school parking lot. Time for this mama to begin praying for this school like their lives depend on it, but actually their souls depend on it!! Victory!!