It all started in Jr. High – Before The Wind & Fire of God

It all started in 1993/1994, I was 13/14 years old. There began an insatiable hunger. A hunger that couldn’t be filled. A feeling like there was something about ready to happen and I didn’t know what but I had to start preparing myself to get ready. I can’t believe my daughter is the same age now as I was then. I had this intense urgency to get on my face before God and cry out for something more. I was going to Temple Christian at that time and I asked my teachers if it was ok to go to the chapel during lunch on Tuesday and Thursdays with whoever wanted to come so we would worship and pray.
I would go around the lunch room and invite whoever wanted to come from my Jr. High and sometimes some high schoolers to join us to fast, worship and pray.

I remember leading worship from the piano and we began to join our voices in prayer and worship. There was an intensity that burned inside of me that got stronger and stronger. It was hard going to a private school and wanting the entire school to get on fire for God and not always seeing it. But I knew God had a purpose in us being there and to press in no matter what we saw.

I don’t remember how long those times in the chapel lasted, but I do remember what happened in 1995, when our Pastors at City Bible Church in Portland, Oregon, Frank & Sharon Damazio went to investigate the Toronto Blessing and came back with an impartation that spread like wildfire. All of a sudden the intensity and hunger that I had felt in 1993/1994 began to be filled to overflowing.
Countless services of receiving the love, anointing, holy spirit refilling over and over began. Times laying out under the power of the Holy Spirit and in those times going deeper, seeing visions God was showing me of the lost of other countries around the world and revival hitting them.


Then in the spring/summer of 1995 came the burden, heavy deep burden of intercession that overtook my body and soul. The deep deep loud travail that came out of me shook me to the core. I would spend hours at the alter, or in my bedroom not just crying but deep guttrral travail would come out of me. I lost all sense of what was happening around me when that took place. I would be worshipping or praying and all of a sudden I could feel the heartbeat and grief of God over those who did not know him or had rejected him. The burden to see them come to know Jesus and go to heaven would be the focus of my mind as my body was overcome by intense groaning. After it had lightened and I would stop, my face would be ballooned, eyes totally swollen and red dots all over my face and neck from blood vessels thst had burst. I started calling them Holy ghost dots, haha. Glad I didn’t have much vanity back then.

That summer I went to England on a mission trip with the youth lead by Ed and Heather Schefter. In preparing for that trip, our team had amazing prayer times after our drama practices. One night it went way too long and all of us kids on the team got in trouble by our parents for being out past curfew, but seriously we were slain in the spirit on the chapel alter or drunk in the spirit (no alcohol) and couldn’t get up. Haha. Awesome memories. Our poor parents, how many parents have ever gotten that excuse from their kids.

On that trip God began to talk to me about taking up my cross and following Him. I realized that going to a private school and living in a total Christian bubble, I had no cross to carry. When I got back home from England we had Youth camp. There at the alter, the intercession for the lost hit me again. As I was on my face Weeping, God clearly told me that every tear I cried would be a soul that is saved at Centennial High school. I was like, what? I love my school and my friends are my family (I had been at TCS from 1st grade till 10th). God said it’s time to pick up my cross and follow him. That Centennial was my mission field. I looked up and saw all my closest friends and I went over and gathered them and told them what God had told me and I cried tears of sadness. It was the hardest thing I had ever done till that time.

Obedience and sacrifice was what He had required for the next step of my journey. The mission field.

Knowing the will of God & Making Good Decisions

Having always been taught by my dad, when making decisions and trying to figure out the will of God to remember James 3:17-18
That the wisdom of God is peaceable.
At first, I can be quick to think that if I do not have peace initially, then it can’t be God’s will to do.
However, when I take a step back, I realize how much of my flesh and carnal thoughts get in the way of what God’s true will is. I can wrestle against something that I feel He has said because of human fears or anxiety about the unknown. That does not mean he doesn’t want me to do it! It can mean that I need to lay down my fears and anxiety at His feet and put my complete trust in Him.
It is ONLY after I have done that completely with a pure willing heart that I need to step back and reevaluate my “Peace Level”.
At that point, as I compare what I feel he is saying with the Bible (that it doesn’t contradict what it says in there), I get godly counsel from spiritual leaders then move ahead with the steps needed to put a peaceful plan in motion.

For me when I hear God tell me something that goes against what my first initial reaction is, there are many times I just have to suck it up and obey. The best part is that He Has Good Things In Store For Those Who Believe and Put Their Trust In Him. He knows the future better than I do 😂 Yes, of course he does. I just need to trust him that he has my best interest at heart and wants to give me peace and bless me.
Jeremiah 29:11-14
For I know the plans and thoughts that I have for you,’ says the Lord, ‘plans for peace and well-being and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.Then you will call on Me and you will come and pray to Me, and I will hear [your voice] and I will listen to you.Then [with a deep longing] you will seek Me and require Me [as a vital necessity] and [you will] find Me when you search for Me with all your heart.I will be found by you,’ says the Lord, ‘and I will restore your fortunes and I will [free you and] gather you from all the nations and from all the places where I have driven you,’ says the Lord , ‘and I will bring you back to the place from where I sent you into exile.’

James 3:17-18
But the wisdom from above is first pure [morally and spiritually undefiled], then peace-loving [courteous, considerate], gentle, reasonable [and willing to listen], full of compassion and good fruits. It is unwavering, without [self-righteous] hypocrisy [and self-serving guile].And the seed whose fruit is righteousness (spiritual maturity) is sown in peace by those who make peace [by actively encouraging goodwill between individuals]. –

Matthew 7:7-11
7 “Ask and keep on asking and it will be given to you; seek and keep on seeking and you will find; knock and keep on knocking and the door will be opened to you.8 For everyone who keeps on asking receives, and he who keeps on seeking finds, and to him who keeps on knocking, it will be opened.9 Or what man is there among you who, if his son asks for bread, will [instead] give him a stone?10 Or if he asks for a fish, will [instead] give him a snake?11 If you then, evil (sinful by nature) as you are, know how to give good and advantageous gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in heaven [perfect as He is] give what is good and advantageous to those who keep on asking Him. –

Wake Up Spirit! Declaring scripture over our prayer targets.

Going on the theme of yesterday’s post, this scripture was burning in my heart this morning for some of the people I’m praying for. I encourage you to speak out loud this verse but insert the name of the person you are praying for in place of the word “You”.

I am convinced and confident of this very thing, that He who has begun a good work in you will [continue to] perfect and complete it until the day of Christ Jesus [the time of His return]. Philippians 1:6 Amplified Version

SO, SAY THIS. GET IT INTO YOUR SPIRIT AND “STIR UP” YOUR FAITH!

I am convinced and confident that He who HAS begun a good work in _________ WILL COMPLETE IT until the day that Jesus Christ returns.

Amen!

Philippians 1:6

There’s something that happens in your spirit when you hear with your ears what you are thinking in your mind. The Bible talks about our thoughts being powerful but even more powerful is declaring the word of God in a situation and joining together your thoughts and heart for someone.

When our faith is “stirred” it means that we are activating it. Like when you put yeast in bread dough. That dough would just sit there and do nothing if the yeast was not added. In the Bible it talks about a little leaven, leavens the whole lump. So does our faith when it is activated in our spirit. It takes our thoughts and emotions and joins it with our spirit. That is where we began to see things from Heaven’s perspective instead of an Earthly perspective. It allows us to gain hope when everything we see in the natural seems hopeless.

So say to your spirit Wake Up! Start declaring with your mouth the Word of God over those who are praying for and in your own situations. There is nothing like getting out of your own pit by focusing your thoughts and prayers on someone else. We can get caught in our own bubble of a world and look at our own junk and situations causing us to go in a downward spiral.

What we need to do is get our eyes OFF of ourselves, and on to Christ. Through Christ see will people through His eyes and partner with Him to see breakthrough for someone else. That is when you begin to feel lighter and start feeling hope and joy in your own life.

It’s time to start declaring the word of God and stirring up our spirit with faith!

We sang this song when I was little. I love singing scripture!

He who Began, by Steve Green https://youtu.be/eNjZlHARnEk

Asking the Holy Spirit to Hover Over Your Prayer Targets

I heard a message years ago from Beni Johnson that talked about praying for our kids that the Holy Spirit would hover over them like the Holy Spirit did over the waters at creation. The testimonies that came in were unbelievable how lives were changed and how the prodigals returned.

I encourage you to listen to this song and where it says “Rest on Us” replace the US with the name of the person you are praying for. It is soo powerful to combine worship with prayer as it releases faith inside of us and joins our hearts and spirit with Papa God.

This song was playing right when I turned my car on this morning on Air1, I’m so thankful!
Now I’m so excited to hear testimonies from you!

Worship Song, Rest On Us from Maverick City Music.
https://youtu.be/8qryRCbNYro

Rip off those Grave Clothes, Hope to the Hopeless

Have you ever had one of those long seasons where fear, anger, grief and loss seem to drown out hope and make the promises of God seem like a mirage?
It may be in those seasons like the only thing to do is block out the world around you as much as you can and go on autopilot.
Then when you finally get to a place where you can relax and have peace you realize that all the relaxing in the world does not take the place of Jesus!

When decisions are made that are totally out of your control and you think that the promises God made will never come to pass. That is when we need to recognize the source of those thoughts, from the pit of hell. It is our responsibility to keep praying, keep trusting God, keep declaring His promises over you and your family. Over your children, their spouses, your grandchildren. Never stop crying out to God for His purposes to be done for His will to be done on Earth as it is in Heaven.

It’s time to shake off those grave clothes! I will never forget a sermon I heard years ago that talked about the grave clothes we walk around in. When Jesus called Lazarus out of the tomb, he told him to Take off those Grave clothes he was wearing. We can walk around with the heaviness that the enemy wants us to stay in but Jesus makes us free, whole and restored. We can asknowledge that the King of Kings and the Lord of Lord’s is still on the throne. He hasn’t stopped believing his promises so we can’t either.

Time to see that Jesus sits on the throne and he has given us the keys of sin and death. He has given us Authority to trample on the enemy. It’s time to get our fight back. It’s time to realize who is the head and who is the tail. We are MORE Than CONQUERORS through Him who loves us and has called us according to His purposes.

Even if we can’t change the choices that we can’t control around us, we can change our thoughts, heart, attitude and response to it. God give us all the strength and courage to see beyond the surface of the problems. Help us to remember that, you take what the enemy meant for evil and turn it for good. Give us your eyes to see with hope that we will see a victory. We will pray with faith and hold on to hope not fear. We align our faith with the word of God. We will silence the lies of the enemy by speaking the word of God to every twisted idea. Turn on the Worship misic and worship your heart out! We will declare the promises of God every day.

~Sometimes I’m a Princess and
Sometimes I’m a Warrior~

https://youtu.be/q5m09rqOoxE

The Mental Battle is Real – So is its Victory

It’s time to no longer allow the enemy to take bits of truth and turn it into a twisted daggar.

This last year has been mentally challenging for many of us. But! We with the power of the Holy Spirit working through us can break through those strongholds that are twisting our mind into a frenzie!

Those areas that take a piece of truth and mix it with an assumption, add in some hurt, dissapointment, anger and resentment and you get a fortress in your mind the enemy has built walls around.

Keeping that fortress may allow you a time of self pity, which can feel justified at first, but it will always hurt more. Self pity is the lock and chain around the fortress. We must be willing to acknowledge self pity is wrong and that it is justifying our sinful response instead of acknowledging God’s ability to set us free.

The weapons of our warfare are not physical [weapons of flesh and blood]. Our weapons are divinely powerful for the destruction of fortresses.We are destroying sophisticated arguments and every exalted and proud thing that sets itself up against the [true] knowledge of God, and we are taking every thought and purpose captive to the obedience of Christ,being ready to punish every act of disobedience, when your own obedience [as a church] is complete. – 2 Corinthians 10:4-6 http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=2Corinthians10:4-6&version=AMP

The only things that can break that is the truth of the word of God, the power of the Holy Spirit, repenting of holding on to those lying thoughts as truth and a determination to stop mulling over those painful thoughts after we receive forgiveness.

The next step is putting into action a plan for a new course. Finally seeing it through. You can get help all you want after that. But if the first steps are not taken it won’t do a lick of good. Conquer the battle in the mind first.

This is my testimony this week. I pray it helps you on your own journey of freedom.

The Lord Says to You this day..I SEE YOU. I HEAR YOU.

Today, while Listening to “Adoration”/Jesus School Worship on YouTube

– God told me to close my eyes and start typing.

God says,

I see you. I hear you. I haven’t forgotten about you. I know your heart. I know your dreams. I remember what I have said to you. I have spoken my words of life and hope and put dreams inside of you.

Don’t keep looking back. Don’t compare. I am doing a new thing. Keep pressing in. Don’t let the heavy clouds of despair and doubt and depression fill your mind and spirit. I am coming to BLOW BLOW BLOW off the dust. Blow off the shackles that bind you. Yes BLOW the shackles. Because they are not strong. They are weak put there by your own imagination. I speak to you today.

 I loose the bonds of weariness. I loose the bonds of doubt and fear and the feeling of being trapped. I loose you this day says your God. Listen to me. Spend time with me. I miss you more than you miss me. In my presence there is Joy. In my presence there is peace. In my presence there is Hope. Put your dreams and destiny into my hands.

This is a season that looks different than you expected. But nothing is a surprise to me. I have set you high upon a rock. On a firm foundation. That foundation will not be shaken. Hold fast to my word. Hold fast to my promises. For it is the weak who say I am strong. It is the poor who say I am rich.

Dwell with me. Dwell in the safety of my presence. Do not be distracted by the words of the world. My plan has never wavered. Come back to me. I need you. I want you. I can hear your cries. You are my beloved. I am jealous for you.

Look for me around you. See what I am doing in other places. Diamonds are created under deep pressure and heat. Don’t be afraid that you wont come out refined and beautiful. For there is nothing impossible with me. It wont look like you thought. It will be just what I want.

See this day I have set before you life or death. Choose life. Live in freedom. Walk in freedom. Speak with a tongue set free from strife or heaviness. Declare to this place that the Lord reigns. I am coming to breathe life back into this place.

You have heard those around the country speaking of a new wave, it is coming. Press into it. Stir up that hunger once again.

There have been those who have left earth with mantels that need to be picked up. Pick them up says your God. Pick up the mantels of the prophets, the worship leaders, the teachers and the preachers, the evangelists and the miracle workers.

What do you want me to do for you?? What do you want to see happen this day. It is a day where you have a slate that is blank before you. ASK BIG OF YOUR GOD!! Don’t miss out on this opportunity. What do you want me to do?? What ?? Don’t hold back in fear to ask big.

DREAM AGAIN!!!!!!!! Dream again!!!! 

I take the coal from the alter and I seal this with a holy kiss.

How to Stand Firm

Wow, Matthew 24:13 jumped off the page this morning. Especially the definition of
STAND Firm.
So HOW do we do that when everything appears chaotic around us? It starts by knowing who we stand firm with! The character and words of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit are unchangeable. His words Always come to pass. Maybe not in our timing, but his Promises are true. The word of God, the Bible is our firm foundation. It is not a book of nice stories, it is the infallible words of God with accurate historical facts. It is our rock and our source. It never changes.

Our PEACE is not determined by what we see outside, it comes from trusting and yielding to the Holy Spirit. He is our pure peace. We might have fun doing things in life, but it doesn’t bring true lasting deep peace. It is in that place of peace where we can relax and ask God to speak to us. It could be through his Word, through worship, soaking, praying in the spirit, or just being quiet. He wants to speak to us more than we want to stay quiet and listen.

Our HOPE comes from knowing His Word, Believing in Faith and acknowledging He is in Control and will keep his people in the shelter of His wing. He has given us authority through His son Jesus to rule and reign with him in heavenly places. He has put the enemy Under our feet. (Romans 16:19,20 Be exellent in what is good, be innocent of evil. And the God of Peace will soon crush Satan underneath your feet) We put on our armor Ephesians 6. We know we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities and powers and rulers in heavenly places. But, Jesus took the keys of sin and death from the devil after his death on the cross. Jesus said, I am he that liveth and was dead and behold I am alive forevermore. I have the keys of hell and of death. (Rev 1:18)

Our HOPE is knowing that our citizenship is not on Earth. If we belong to Christ, Heaven is our home and we eagerly await our reunion with Him. Phillipians 3:20 Our confidence in this comes from Faith in His Word.

If there was ever a time to read our Bibles it is now!

Pandemic: Never before is hearing God so important. Seek Him!

Today I was, Soo ready to finally have a chance to escape and deliver a little table to our client in Seaside, OR. Awesome drive here listening to Elevation Church live. Delivered a piece of furniture for the first time with a mask and gloves on. Not normal.

https://www.facebook.com/elevationchurch.org/videos/227573958565893/
Made me reflect on Pastor Steve Furtick’s message this morning about getting back to normal. Very thought provoking and timely. 3 months ago most of us were running around like a chicken with our heads cut off. Dreaming of vacations or things slowing down. Ha! Watch out what you pray for you might actually get it 😂

We are all experiencing a new normal. Some want to get back to the old normal. But what is the normal God has for you in the future. Is it to reexamine our priorities? Spend more time with our families? Not jam pack our schedules with so much busy stuff? Not spend as much money on entertainment or eating out? Imagine how many more opportunities you have now to pick up the phone and catch up with a distant relative or friend. Imagine all the blood pressures that are being naturally lowered and more good endorphins that are being released to bring health and healing to bodies. How many more walks have we taken, I know a lot for myself. More peace.

But joy? Ha 🤔 Joy is always a choice. Even with more time at home, there are things that get in the way of our joy. For me I have been struggling with having to cancel our long awaited and months planning for 20th anniversary trip. I’ve waited 10 years to be in the tropics again. This week I had to cancel multiple fights and a resort stay far away. I had been on a 6 month happy high and it all came crashing down. Running our own business from our home takes a massive amount of grace for our marriage, family and sanity. I needed a break.

But! That is no reason for my attitude to go down the drain, be easy agitated and frustrated. What I need to do is stop and start thanking God for his blessings and pray for all those who are being negitivy affected in this pandemic.

Seaside, Oregon

Driving to the beach today, I began to reflect on the fact that, this Earth is not our home. We are only given a handful or more decades on this planet. There is more to this life than the pleasures we so desire. There is a reason we are breathing, to get to know Father God and help others understand the gift he has given us, Eternal Life.

But living a life with the benefits of heaven doesn’t start when we die. It begins when we start seeing and living life through an eternal kingdom perspective.
What does that mean?
It means we look at each day, every season or trial with the question,
How will God reveal himself himself to me at this time?
What lesson does he want to teach me?
What blessing is he releasing?
How can I touch others with his love in this time?
What is keeping me away from spending time with Him in this time?
What is He speaking to me?
Am I waiting to hear His voice?
How can His power and majesty be shown through this?

God is wanting to show all of us something very specific right now. Each one of us are walking a different path. He doesn’t just throw our a generic word. He has something specific for you and your family. Seek him like never before. In Psalms it says, to those who seek Him, He will be found by them. Call upon him to share the secrets of His heart. He also says, he will reveal his secrets to those who fear him. The world has slowed down. If we take advantage of this once in a lifetime moment, seek His Face! WE WILL FIND HIM LIKE NEVER BEFORE! Don’t miss your chance!

National Day Of Prayer for COVID-19 Coronavirus

Today I join with our President and millions of Christians around the USA on this #NationalDayOfPrayer.

I declare #Psalms91 over us. Jesus you said, If I will be lifted up, I will draw all men unto me.” Jesus, I lift you up over the United States, I lift you up over the world. Draw all men and women and children unto you. Stretch out your hand and eliminate #covid19 the #coronavirus. We declare healing for all infected.

The Bible says it is by your stripes Jesus that we have been healed! We declare healing over those who are sick today. Let your people arise with faith and begin to lay hands on the sick and see them recover. This goes for every sickness and every disease. Let us see miracles break out across the country as your people rise in faith for the impossible. The same Holy Spirit that was poured out in Acts NEVER LOST His Power! The Blood of Jesus Never lost its power. The same blood of Jesus that washes away our sins, heals our bodies. Thank you #Jesus for your sacrifice on the cross for us. We declare health and wholeness for every body!

We will not bow to the spirit of fear! We reject fear and receive faith! For the Lord has not given us a spirit of fear but of Power Love and a Sound Mind! Father release a sound mind over every #government official. Let them lead with wisdom. I pray for our President Donald #Trump and First Lady Melania, their family, Vice President Mike Pence and his wife and family. Protect them, give them wisdom and guide them in truth and love. Father your will be done, your kingdom come on earth as it is in Heaven. Provide, protect and heal our nation and the nations of the world. For yours is the Kingdom and the Power and the Glory Forever Amen!

Psalms 91 produced by our friend Steve Carpenter and his kids with Hwy 19 Media Productions. https://m.facebook.com/story.php?story_fbid=10220228226269444&id=1041094279