In the Darkest Night He Will Light it Up

When God gets ready to move you into another step of your destiny, I am learning he will begin to expose the sin in our lives. Even more so, He may also shake the foundations in our lives where sin is about to be exposed in those around us. This can cause households to shake.

It may make you uncomfortable, because when sin is exposed hell trembles, especially if your heart is pure and repentant before the Lord. The enemy will try to pull out all the stops. You may have times where you feel hopeless and that the dreams God had given you will never be fulfilled. You may look at circumstances and think, how in the world will God ever fulfill His word. You may feel dry and possibly even distant from God’s voice.

But if your heart’s desire is to live completely sold out in abandonment to the lover of your soul, God will not forsake you! He will fulfill his word! His promises always will be fulfilled! It might not look like what you expected but God is the ultimate Transformer.

He can take utter devastation and loss and in your darkest moment give you a glimpse of the beauty before you. Don’t lose heart. Don’t give up. Keep your eyes on Jesus and seek his face and not just his hand of what he can do for you. Spending time in his presence is like nothing else you will encounter on Earth. Put on some worship music and enter in with abandonment. This has been my personal playlist this year. It had been constantly on repeat. I hope you find healing and peace through these songs. https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLUDOz07Ot4bbBBvtHe6FVoQVcnt9hlPiz

Setting our eyes on Him takes our eyes off of our current circumstances and allows Faith to fill us.

Closing Doors In Our Home

Let’s talk about opening & closing doors in the home. Something pretty incredible happened this week that was quite the learning experience. I knew better. Long but worth it post.

A few years ago my daughter’s friends were telling her to watch a TV series called Once Upon a Time. It takes Disney stories and brings them to life and has them trapped in the real world. When my daughter was younger I told her she could not watch it because I had heard there was some dark aspects of it.


Forward to the last couple weeks where I told her that I would watch it with her (she is almost 15). We both knew it was showing things on there I typically wouldn’t have in our house in regards to magic. But the storyline was good and intriguing so we kept watching it.
There were times where I asked her if it was too heavy and we would take a break. But then this week when we watched a few episodes, during one of the episodes my 18 yr old son came in for lunch and he heard one phrase that was spoken where Rumplestilskin was evoking a dark spirit. He said he had chills go through his body. That night I was up late reading my Bible. My daughter stood in my doorway at 12:30AM with a startled look on her face. She said that she left her room to go to the bathroom and when she came back her desk chair was turned towards the wall. She said it wasn’t like that when she left and it made her scared. I went in her room and prayed for her and prayed for peace for her room.


Then the next morning when my son was eating breakfast he did not look right. He looked heavy and down, not just tired. I asked him if he was okay and he said he felt like he did something wrong but he didn’t know what he did. He said he just felt weird inside.
That same day my daughter kept on looking at me and asking me what was wrong. She said something in my eyes looked different. I was baffled because to me I was just hot and at the time I was getting my lunch so I was hungry and maybe a little agitated. But she said there was something else.
That afternoon I talked to them about what I think was happening and that we need to spend some time praying over the house when we get home from youth group. I told the kids that I realized what I had done, as the adult allowing a open door in the spirit to have access in our home the last few weeks. When we willingly engage by watching or listening to even very light occultic/demonic activities, by our choice it allows an Open Door in the spirit Realm because we have given it legal access.


But the good news is we have Authority in the name of Jesus to close that door. We stood in the living room and I led the prayer and then they prayed their own prayers. I repented and asked forgiveness for opening the door to the enemy. That I was wrong even after feeling a check in my spirit I shouldn’t have kept going. I asked Jesus to close that door and fill our home with his perfect love that casts out all fear. Declared the blood of Jesus is over our home and all evil spirits must go! After the kids prayed we took oil and anointed every single window, door and electronic equipment and screen, declaring the blood of Jesus over everything.

My son stayed downstairs after we anointed with oil. When I came down to turn off the lights he was walking around playing worship music and praying and declaring every demon needs to flee his home in Jesus name. He was walking in an authority and passion like I had never seen before. I was so proud of him and so comforted at the same time for him to step up in leadership in this way.

The most incredible thing was waking up on Thursday and having peace, joy and freedom. It might be a simple thing or very complicated for some people to understand. All the more I know now, when my kids or I have a check in our Spirit about what was being watched, we need to keep out anything that has a resemblance to the occult.
It’s not worth it. It’s Entertainment masked as light or fun. But the enemy can get in and will stay there if we are not sensitive and tell him to get out. Some shows are darker than others and each of us has to use our own discernment as to what our spirit can allow. But after talking to my daughter, we agreed we’re not watching anymore of that show, even though we are curious what will happen. Guess she can ask her friends and get the cliff notes.

I pray sharing my experience helps you to identify things in your home that could possibly be giving the enemy legal access to bring torment. I have prayed through my home countless times when I felt or knew something was wrong. The biggest step is repentance and renouncing sin or the allowing of something to come into the home. The Authority that Christ is giving us under the blood of Jesus has a power to kick out every evil spirit in your home. It takes us recognizing it even if we don’t know specifically what is causing the torment. We can start with repentance and going around the home and declaring the blood of Jesus over every entryway. Closing our Eye gate, Ear gate and heartgate is so important. For us and our children.

There have been times where someone’s been in my house that I knew in my spirit something was wrong, so I went through and prayed after they left. Another time when our first born was just a toddler we had someone babysit him who we knew wasn’t a Christian and she gave him a hanging mobile. We put it up in his room that night and he woke up screaming bloody murder for no reason. I recognized what had happened with the thing that she had giving him that we put up in his room. It was taken outside and destroyed and we prayed over the house and he had no problems after that with his sleep being disturbed. The kingdom aof light and the kingdom of darkness are constantly at war with each other. But we have the authority as sons and daughters of God, under his blood. There is power in the blood of Jesus to break every chain!

Here are some great teaching resources on Discernment (thanks Mom for the links)

Jane Hamon’s teaching series on Discernment is great. Here is a condensed version.
Discernment: The Essential Guide to Hearing the Voice of God https://a.co/d/38t1EfU

My Dad loves Watchman Nee:
Spiritual Discernment https://www.amazon.com/dp/B00M8E42U0/ref=cm_sw_r_apan_MHH28E5EJG5QHJBHF46E

Mental Victories: Hardest Fought but Greatest Reward

Today I used the verse below as a weapon to stomp on the enemy’s head. He kept trying to creep up and place degrading thoughts in my mind about myself. Hurtful words that had been spoken to me by another person, now used as a dagger the enemy constantly tries to annihilate me with.

Today I spoke this verse over myself again and again and it fortified a wall of the word of God around me blocking the enemy’s voice. I sat in peace when I normally would have been in turmoil.

Today, declaring this verse put on display the power of the word of God when it is hidden in our hearts and used against the enemy, as the word of Our Testimony.
⚡ I am the righteousness of God in Christ Jesus.⚡

Righteousness means right standing with God. I know the purity of my heart and actions before God. I know my position in Christ. I am a daughter of the King.

Let this verse sink into your heart. Let it become your Battle Cry when the enemy comes to fill your mind with thoughts that tear you down. Knowing who we are in Christ enables us to walk each day filled with his grace and enablement to be able to do everything he has called us to do.

He made Christ who knew no sin to [judicially] be sin on our behalf, so that in Him we would become the righteousness of God [that is, we would be made acceptable to Him and placed in a right relationship with Him by His gracious lovingkindness].
2 Corinthians 5:21 Amplified

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It all started in Jr. High – Before The Wind & Fire of God

It all started in 1993/1994, I was 13/14 years old. There began an insatiable hunger. A hunger that couldn’t be filled. A feeling like there was something about ready to happen and I didn’t know what but I had to start preparing myself to get ready. I can’t believe my daughter is the same age now as I was then. I had this intense urgency to get on my face before God and cry out for something more. I was going to Temple Christian at that time and I asked my teachers if it was ok to go to the chapel during lunch on Tuesday and Thursdays with whoever wanted to come so we would worship and pray.
I would go around the lunch room and invite whoever wanted to come from my Jr. High and sometimes some high schoolers to join us to fast, worship and pray.

I remember leading worship from the piano and we began to join our voices in prayer and worship. There was an intensity that burned inside of me that got stronger and stronger. It was hard going to a private school and wanting the entire school to get on fire for God and not always seeing it. But I knew God had a purpose in us being there and to press in no matter what we saw.

I don’t remember how long those times in the chapel lasted, but I do remember what happened in 1995, when our Pastors at City Bible Church in Portland, Oregon, Frank & Sharon Damazio went to investigate the Toronto Blessing and came back with an impartation that spread like wildfire. All of a sudden the intensity and hunger that I had felt in 1993/1994 began to be filled to overflowing.
Countless services of receiving the love, anointing, holy spirit refilling over and over began. Times laying out under the power of the Holy Spirit and in those times going deeper, seeing visions God was showing me of the lost of other countries around the world and revival hitting them.


Then in the spring/summer of 1995 came the burden, heavy deep burden of intercession that overtook my body and soul. The deep deep loud travail that came out of me shook me to the core. I would spend hours at the alter, or in my bedroom not just crying but deep guttrral travail would come out of me. I lost all sense of what was happening around me when that took place. I would be worshipping or praying and all of a sudden I could feel the heartbeat and grief of God over those who did not know him or had rejected him. The burden to see them come to know Jesus and go to heaven would be the focus of my mind as my body was overcome by intense groaning. After it had lightened and I would stop, my face would be ballooned, eyes totally swollen and red dots all over my face and neck from blood vessels thst had burst. I started calling them Holy ghost dots, haha. Glad I didn’t have much vanity back then.

That summer I went to England on a mission trip with the youth lead by Ed and Heather Schefter. In preparing for that trip, our team had amazing prayer times after our drama practices. One night it went way too long and all of us kids on the team got in trouble by our parents for being out past curfew, but seriously we were slain in the spirit on the chapel alter or drunk in the spirit (no alcohol) and couldn’t get up. Haha. Awesome memories. Our poor parents, how many parents have ever gotten that excuse from their kids.

On that trip God began to talk to me about taking up my cross and following Him. I realized that going to a private school and living in a total Christian bubble, I had no cross to carry. When I got back home from England we had Youth camp. There at the alter, the intercession for the lost hit me again. As I was on my face Weeping, God clearly told me that every tear I cried would be a soul that is saved at Centennial High school. I was like, what? I love my school and my friends are my family (I had been at TCS from 1st grade till 10th). God said it’s time to pick up my cross and follow him. That Centennial was my mission field. I looked up and saw all my closest friends and I went over and gathered them and told them what God had told me and I cried tears of sadness. It was the hardest thing I had ever done till that time.

Obedience and sacrifice was what He had required for the next step of my journey. The mission field.

Knowing the will of God & Making Good Decisions

Having always been taught by my dad, when making decisions and trying to figure out the will of God to remember James 3:17-18
That the wisdom of God is peaceable.
At first, I can be quick to think that if I do not have peace initially, then it can’t be God’s will to do.
However, when I take a step back, I realize how much of my flesh and carnal thoughts get in the way of what God’s true will is. I can wrestle against something that I feel He has said because of human fears or anxiety about the unknown. That does not mean he doesn’t want me to do it! It can mean that I need to lay down my fears and anxiety at His feet and put my complete trust in Him.
It is ONLY after I have done that completely with a pure willing heart that I need to step back and reevaluate my “Peace Level”.
At that point, as I compare what I feel he is saying with the Bible (that it doesn’t contradict what it says in there), I get godly counsel from spiritual leaders then move ahead with the steps needed to put a peaceful plan in motion.

For me when I hear God tell me something that goes against what my first initial reaction is, there are many times I just have to suck it up and obey. The best part is that He Has Good Things In Store For Those Who Believe and Put Their Trust In Him. He knows the future better than I do 😂 Yes, of course he does. I just need to trust him that he has my best interest at heart and wants to give me peace and bless me.
Jeremiah 29:11-14
For I know the plans and thoughts that I have for you,’ says the Lord, ‘plans for peace and well-being and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.Then you will call on Me and you will come and pray to Me, and I will hear [your voice] and I will listen to you.Then [with a deep longing] you will seek Me and require Me [as a vital necessity] and [you will] find Me when you search for Me with all your heart.I will be found by you,’ says the Lord, ‘and I will restore your fortunes and I will [free you and] gather you from all the nations and from all the places where I have driven you,’ says the Lord , ‘and I will bring you back to the place from where I sent you into exile.’

James 3:17-18
But the wisdom from above is first pure [morally and spiritually undefiled], then peace-loving [courteous, considerate], gentle, reasonable [and willing to listen], full of compassion and good fruits. It is unwavering, without [self-righteous] hypocrisy [and self-serving guile].And the seed whose fruit is righteousness (spiritual maturity) is sown in peace by those who make peace [by actively encouraging goodwill between individuals]. –

Matthew 7:7-11
7 “Ask and keep on asking and it will be given to you; seek and keep on seeking and you will find; knock and keep on knocking and the door will be opened to you.8 For everyone who keeps on asking receives, and he who keeps on seeking finds, and to him who keeps on knocking, it will be opened.9 Or what man is there among you who, if his son asks for bread, will [instead] give him a stone?10 Or if he asks for a fish, will [instead] give him a snake?11 If you then, evil (sinful by nature) as you are, know how to give good and advantageous gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in heaven [perfect as He is] give what is good and advantageous to those who keep on asking Him. –

Wake Up Spirit! Declaring scripture over our prayer targets.

Going on the theme of yesterday’s post, this scripture was burning in my heart this morning for some of the people I’m praying for. I encourage you to speak out loud this verse but insert the name of the person you are praying for in place of the word “You”.

I am convinced and confident of this very thing, that He who has begun a good work in you will [continue to] perfect and complete it until the day of Christ Jesus [the time of His return]. Philippians 1:6 Amplified Version

SO, SAY THIS. GET IT INTO YOUR SPIRIT AND “STIR UP” YOUR FAITH!

I am convinced and confident that He who HAS begun a good work in _________ WILL COMPLETE IT until the day that Jesus Christ returns.

Amen!

Philippians 1:6

There’s something that happens in your spirit when you hear with your ears what you are thinking in your mind. The Bible talks about our thoughts being powerful but even more powerful is declaring the word of God in a situation and joining together your thoughts and heart for someone.

When our faith is “stirred” it means that we are activating it. Like when you put yeast in bread dough. That dough would just sit there and do nothing if the yeast was not added. In the Bible it talks about a little leaven, leavens the whole lump. So does our faith when it is activated in our spirit. It takes our thoughts and emotions and joins it with our spirit. That is where we began to see things from Heaven’s perspective instead of an Earthly perspective. It allows us to gain hope when everything we see in the natural seems hopeless.

So say to your spirit Wake Up! Start declaring with your mouth the Word of God over those who are praying for and in your own situations. There is nothing like getting out of your own pit by focusing your thoughts and prayers on someone else. We can get caught in our own bubble of a world and look at our own junk and situations causing us to go in a downward spiral.

What we need to do is get our eyes OFF of ourselves, and on to Christ. Through Christ see will people through His eyes and partner with Him to see breakthrough for someone else. That is when you begin to feel lighter and start feeling hope and joy in your own life.

It’s time to start declaring the word of God and stirring up our spirit with faith!

We sang this song when I was little. I love singing scripture!

He who Began, by Steve Green https://youtu.be/eNjZlHARnEk

Asking the Holy Spirit to Hover Over Your Prayer Targets

I heard a message years ago from Beni Johnson that talked about praying for our kids that the Holy Spirit would hover over them like the Holy Spirit did over the waters at creation. The testimonies that came in were unbelievable how lives were changed and how the prodigals returned.

I encourage you to listen to this song and where it says “Rest on Us” replace the US with the name of the person you are praying for. It is soo powerful to combine worship with prayer as it releases faith inside of us and joins our hearts and spirit with Papa God.

This song was playing right when I turned my car on this morning on Air1, I’m so thankful!
Now I’m so excited to hear testimonies from you!

Worship Song, Rest On Us from Maverick City Music.
https://youtu.be/8qryRCbNYro

Rip off those Grave Clothes, Hope to the Hopeless

Have you ever had one of those long seasons where fear, anger, grief and loss seem to drown out hope and make the promises of God seem like a mirage?
It may be in those seasons like the only thing to do is block out the world around you as much as you can and go on autopilot.
Then when you finally get to a place where you can relax and have peace you realize that all the relaxing in the world does not take the place of Jesus!

When decisions are made that are totally out of your control and you think that the promises God made will never come to pass. That is when we need to recognize the source of those thoughts, from the pit of hell. It is our responsibility to keep praying, keep trusting God, keep declaring His promises over you and your family. Over your children, their spouses, your grandchildren. Never stop crying out to God for His purposes to be done for His will to be done on Earth as it is in Heaven.

It’s time to shake off those grave clothes! I will never forget a sermon I heard years ago that talked about the grave clothes we walk around in. When Jesus called Lazarus out of the tomb, he told him to Take off those Grave clothes he was wearing. We can walk around with the heaviness that the enemy wants us to stay in but Jesus makes us free, whole and restored. We can asknowledge that the King of Kings and the Lord of Lord’s is still on the throne. He hasn’t stopped believing his promises so we can’t either.

Time to see that Jesus sits on the throne and he has given us the keys of sin and death. He has given us Authority to trample on the enemy. It’s time to get our fight back. It’s time to realize who is the head and who is the tail. We are MORE Than CONQUERORS through Him who loves us and has called us according to His purposes.

Even if we can’t change the choices that we can’t control around us, we can change our thoughts, heart, attitude and response to it. God give us all the strength and courage to see beyond the surface of the problems. Help us to remember that, you take what the enemy meant for evil and turn it for good. Give us your eyes to see with hope that we will see a victory. We will pray with faith and hold on to hope not fear. We align our faith with the word of God. We will silence the lies of the enemy by speaking the word of God to every twisted idea. Turn on the Worship misic and worship your heart out! We will declare the promises of God every day.

~Sometimes I’m a Princess and
Sometimes I’m a Warrior~

https://youtu.be/q5m09rqOoxE

The Mental Battle is Real – So is its Victory

It’s time to no longer allow the enemy to take bits of truth and turn it into a twisted daggar.

This last year has been mentally challenging for many of us. But! We with the power of the Holy Spirit working through us can break through those strongholds that are twisting our mind into a frenzie!

Those areas that take a piece of truth and mix it with an assumption, add in some hurt, dissapointment, anger and resentment and you get a fortress in your mind the enemy has built walls around.

Keeping that fortress may allow you a time of self pity, which can feel justified at first, but it will always hurt more. Self pity is the lock and chain around the fortress. We must be willing to acknowledge self pity is wrong and that it is justifying our sinful response instead of acknowledging God’s ability to set us free.

The weapons of our warfare are not physical [weapons of flesh and blood]. Our weapons are divinely powerful for the destruction of fortresses.We are destroying sophisticated arguments and every exalted and proud thing that sets itself up against the [true] knowledge of God, and we are taking every thought and purpose captive to the obedience of Christ,being ready to punish every act of disobedience, when your own obedience [as a church] is complete. – 2 Corinthians 10:4-6 http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=2Corinthians10:4-6&version=AMP

The only things that can break that is the truth of the word of God, the power of the Holy Spirit, repenting of holding on to those lying thoughts as truth and a determination to stop mulling over those painful thoughts after we receive forgiveness.

The next step is putting into action a plan for a new course. Finally seeing it through. You can get help all you want after that. But if the first steps are not taken it won’t do a lick of good. Conquer the battle in the mind first.

This is my testimony this week. I pray it helps you on your own journey of freedom.

The Lord Says to You this day..I SEE YOU. I HEAR YOU.

Today, while Listening to “Adoration”/Jesus School Worship on YouTube

– God told me to close my eyes and start typing.

God says,

I see you. I hear you. I haven’t forgotten about you. I know your heart. I know your dreams. I remember what I have said to you. I have spoken my words of life and hope and put dreams inside of you.

Don’t keep looking back. Don’t compare. I am doing a new thing. Keep pressing in. Don’t let the heavy clouds of despair and doubt and depression fill your mind and spirit. I am coming to BLOW BLOW BLOW off the dust. Blow off the shackles that bind you. Yes BLOW the shackles. Because they are not strong. They are weak put there by your own imagination. I speak to you today.

 I loose the bonds of weariness. I loose the bonds of doubt and fear and the feeling of being trapped. I loose you this day says your God. Listen to me. Spend time with me. I miss you more than you miss me. In my presence there is Joy. In my presence there is peace. In my presence there is Hope. Put your dreams and destiny into my hands.

This is a season that looks different than you expected. But nothing is a surprise to me. I have set you high upon a rock. On a firm foundation. That foundation will not be shaken. Hold fast to my word. Hold fast to my promises. For it is the weak who say I am strong. It is the poor who say I am rich.

Dwell with me. Dwell in the safety of my presence. Do not be distracted by the words of the world. My plan has never wavered. Come back to me. I need you. I want you. I can hear your cries. You are my beloved. I am jealous for you.

Look for me around you. See what I am doing in other places. Diamonds are created under deep pressure and heat. Don’t be afraid that you wont come out refined and beautiful. For there is nothing impossible with me. It wont look like you thought. It will be just what I want.

See this day I have set before you life or death. Choose life. Live in freedom. Walk in freedom. Speak with a tongue set free from strife or heaviness. Declare to this place that the Lord reigns. I am coming to breathe life back into this place.

You have heard those around the country speaking of a new wave, it is coming. Press into it. Stir up that hunger once again.

There have been those who have left earth with mantels that need to be picked up. Pick them up says your God. Pick up the mantels of the prophets, the worship leaders, the teachers and the preachers, the evangelists and the miracle workers.

What do you want me to do for you?? What do you want to see happen this day. It is a day where you have a slate that is blank before you. ASK BIG OF YOUR GOD!! Don’t miss out on this opportunity. What do you want me to do?? What ?? Don’t hold back in fear to ask big.

DREAM AGAIN!!!!!!!! Dream again!!!! 

I take the coal from the alter and I seal this with a holy kiss.